I think it's unfair, but they have the right as fallible, screwed-up humans to be unfair; that's the human condition.

Well... that's how the life goes. I had a terribly enjoyable shift yesterday and I thought to myself then 'Hell, I like this job'. Even though it's not EXACTLY where I want to work, I was learning a lot... And really that shift was cool.

I started off with long, boring talk with the manager, which was boring and funny at the same time, because the manager treats me like stupid, trying to check my knowledge. I felt like a primary school kid and felt quite silly telling him how to do the most basic stuff with our hotel system. To be honest, as a person who was born in 90s I was growing up with computer, so it's no magic for me. I have no problems learning computer system, especially after someone tells me how to do everything.
Then I listen to the same remarks as always, about some mistakes, which I never did, but as I am the newest worker here, so of course it's me to blame for all that. Well, I could just smile and say 'Yes, I got it'.

So after the manager left, I had half of the day left. And guess what! A Japanese guest came! I was quite nervous, but I did ask him in Japanese if he's Japanese. Ok now. I know it's a stupid question to ask. Especially using Japanese. Anyway, that's how I started the Japanese check-in for the first time in my life. I was so nervous, I forgot some words, so I said them in English and it was an interesting mix, but the guest seemed to be ok with my Japanese, so I was so happy~~~~!

And then some nice guests came, one of whom asked me....
The Guest: Are you French?
Me: Why, no?
G: Your Polish sounds a bit French...
Me: Oh really?
G: I had a friend once and she was French. She talked in Polish just like you.
Me: I'll take it as a compliment then!
G: Will you work here tomorrow too?

Oh, was it some kind of pick-up line? I'm happy then! I was wearing my favourite dress then (I wore it twice in my life and it already feels a bit too small for me now.... wait! Am I still growing? Damn...).

One of the guests came to talk about tv remote control which seem to be out of order, but we googled for the instructions and we found out we can fix it.

I also got a call which made me laugh for 2 hours or more. The other hotel from our small hotel group called to ask if we have room no 101 in our hotel. We did. "Oh, then your guest got stuck in the room!" Whaaat? Hahahah ^^
I went to check on it and yes, indeed. The guest was quite unlucky. He had some other problems with the room earlier - something connected with electricity and then there was no hot water in the bathroom for some time..... Did I mention why this place is not exactly where I want to work?
The guest was very understanding, he didn't shout or get irritated at all, instead he looked really scared. Every time he went out and came back he was telling me to rescue him in case something happens ^^



And of course when something nice happens, something less nice must happen too. And that is work meeting to make schedule. Suddenly it turned out they don't really want me to work normally. They want me just for weekends, while I have dance practice on Saturday evening, so I can only take either morning or night shift. Normally it shouldn't be a problem. But it became one. Forget about the fact that I was hired to work full time and suddenly I became a part-time weekend worker, which I didn't really wish for. But other workers are unwilling to compromise. And who else is there to blame if not the newest worker? Of course. I left the meeting with a feeling of disgust for myself and for the other receptionist.

People working in China were so different. They were working really a lot. Their salary was more or less the same as ours here, just that they were doing hundred more things than here. And they never complained about 4 days off a month. And here the people are just... Working in a hotel means working weekends, Christmas, New Year's Eve... But it doesn't mean that one worker works every weekend. They cannot hope to work Mon-Fri in a hotel.

But they do.

And they work like this.

That's why I need to protect my dance practice and my dreams. And I have to move on. I plan to hand in my resignation. Why? Because that's not what I was hired for. I want to work normally. I like hotel job. And I think the higher rating on booking.com is partly because of my contribution too. I want to work somewhere where they admit that I am an important worker and they will appreciate my hard work! Is it really too much to ask for?

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

My year 2012 was a year in Asia. Year which will become my inspiration and motivation for the next year - 2013. And now, two first weeks past and I found a job. Tomorrow I will start new stage in my life. I already started few things, which will occupy me this year, and that is Japanese folklore dance, job in a hotel and saving money for a trip to Japan.

The first meeting of Soran bushi dance group - Sakuramai Poland.

For now, I'm slowly getting used to living in Poland - eating bread instead of rice, going to buy vegetables and going back empty-handed, because the vegetables looked bad, talking in Polish and waiting for bus, which comes late, looking for a job and expecting a low salary.
But it's alright. Because now, that I have a PLAN for this year, I will live well and do well. I'm very nervous because of tomorrow. I will have the first, initial training at work. The first 4 hours in new workplace. I will do my best~!

Let the Year of Snake begin! (Wait, it's too early, the Year of Snake begins around February....?)

If you asked me for my New Year Resolution, it would be to find out who I am.

Here it is - year 2013. And it follows year 2012, which was full of emotions, adventures, feelings, new people, reconciling with people from the past, learning, struggling, fighting, crying, laughing...
This past year was full of everything, which can be called a part of life. I grew up a lot. I don't regret anything. I do have thoughts sometimes, what would be if I had made a different decision now and then. But I decided to look forward now. Maybe the thing that I call my dream, which I became aware of in 2012 is not actually my dream, but it became my direction for now and I don't want to loose sight of it.

Start of work that I came to love!

This year, I have one main New Year's Resolution and a few smaller to accompany it. The job that I started in China, I want to become a professional in it. That's why I want to work in Poland in the same industry for now and I want to study about it on master course too. This year should be full of only this work related things. Work & Study. Other than that I wish to go on AIESEC internship again, but this time maybe to Japan. Decision about moving the area of my studies to a different direction was very difficult for me, as I love Japanese studies and the language, which I'm gradually starting to forget unfortunately. That's why I wish to gain as much knowledge about my job as I can, so that I am able to work in Japan too one day.

Friends that I came to love!

This year, just like the year before, I will slowly but tenaciously go forward to reach my dreams!
And I wish everyone to be able to realise their New Year's Resolutions this year too!

Happy New Year!

Back home, but never back to the starting point.

The day has come. My adventure in China ended and now I'm back home once again. I knew it was going to end. I was aware that coming back home won't be easy. But the feelings that I hold in my heart now is something that nobody can understand, if they never spend the best times of their lives somewehere far away from home.

Eight months in China gave me so much. Courage, self-confidence, friendship, dreams. It made me feel that I can do anything I want and I can reach to any goal I set for myself. It made me get my wings to fly, believe no Red Bull is needed. I started to believe in people and started to be active about who I am. I changed my ways and I like how it's changed. I managed to realise a dream that I was not able to do anything with for a loooong time, I finally went to Japan. I could face people I like and people I care about. And above all, I had time to think. Time to plan everything I want to do. And now I will not back out, because now I know that only if I say out loud my dreams, hopes and aspirations, only when me, alone, became aware that this is actually what I want to do, only then can I achieve them or at least stand closer to them.

It will be difficult. I know that. It will be hard and boring. But I have time, I will honestly face my fears and doubts. I will take it easy. Step by step, without rushing things, I will definitely reach my goal. I can plan my whole year ahead, but I'm still not too clear about the final goal. So I will take my time to see it clearly.

To be honest, when I came back home after 8 months in China and almost a month in Japan, I wanted to cry. Yes, I was happy to meet my family and enthusiastic to meet my friends. But when I was thinking about even trivial matters like, food or living conditions.... I wanted to cry. I want to eat Asian food and live alone, is what I thought at first. I want to see Asian faces, and listen to Chinese or Japanese. I want people to smaller, less open, more polite... I want to go back to Asia. But I can't forget my other dreams and can't forget my future.

It's time to think about New Yer's resolutions again and I believe that year 2013 will be the most important year of my life. Or this is what I'm gonna make it. I will make it the most life affecting year of my life. And for this I will try my best!


For coming back with the blog in such a heavy way, I'm very sorry!

All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.

Christmas in Poland are coming soon. Usually I didn't work on Christmas Eve already, helping my mom with baking and cooking, but this year I'll be working till 3pm. Which is also a good thing, because just before the dinner everyone is so stressed out that we usually quarrel a lot. So, this part will pass, without me getting engaged.

That's why today I started with big cleaning. I checked every corner of my room and it became an even bigger mess, as I found lots of interesting things from my childhood and from recent times too.
Like this:

This ugly pink Barbie bag was my dream for a long time when I was a child. When I got it, I was proudly holding it when going to French class.

That's funny how people mature quickly.... Mature.... Ok, maybe I haven't matured yet, but ok. One more time. It's funny how people's dreams change so fast...

I found a box with my old toys!!!!!! I think I'm still a kid, I can play with them as well as when I was a kid :P

But I still didn't finish tidying up my room..........

Let's live it up.

It's been a while since I stopped believing in the bullshit about following your dreams. Usually people who are successful shout the word 'dreams dreams' a lot, but I bet they didn't think about it this way when they still hadn't achieved anything. Well, I don't believe it also because, everytime I was trying really hard, bad things happened. So I came to one conclusion. Don't think about specific dreams. After having that said, I want to show you my today's photo:

Yes, I know, the quality of photos taken with mobile phones is just amazing.....................................ly bad.

Yes. I changed the word 'dreams' to the one simple sentence that would become my reason to live! Let's colour our lifes. I want to experience something new, I want to find myself in a whole different galaxy. I'm slowly approaching this new 'something', which I don't even want to specify. I just aim to LIVE.

And I hope it will work ^^

Day 5 of 30: COMPLETE!