A dream is your creative vision for your life in the future. You must break out of your current comfort zone and become comfortable with the unfamiliar and the unknown.

After quite a busy weekend, I decided to take a break during the week. I have no shifts on weekdays, as the other workers from my hotel got angry that I'm taking their shifts away. Okay then, I'm not saying anything, just looking for another job in the meantime. And this week, I decided to cut on the time I'm spending in from of the computer. Well, my mobile broke down, so I'm temporarily using my old old one, which makes me unable to check facebook or gmail all the time, which I used to do. And there are some problems with the wifi at home too (well, ain't I lucky?), so I decided to use this opportunity and forget about computer for a while. Just now, I'm sitting in the library and because I don't want to go home, I decided to write this post.

The weather today is brilliant. The sun is shining and it feels like spring already! When I was waiting on the bus I felt the sunlight on my face and one guy on the bus stop, age around 30-40 years old, was sucking a pink-colored lollipop. It's spring, I thought again. Even if the winter weather comes back again, I feel that something is starting anew. I have a few new things, which I want to try to accomplish to. New possiblities, new opportunities. For now, till 30th of March I'm busy preparing for an important thing (which my friends knows what it is). The Emirates Open Day. I feel that my friends are supporting me and helping me a lot, so I just cannot not try my best!

Well then, I'm going back home to study my 'Air Travel English' book published even before Pan Am bancrupted. By the way, talking about Pan Am, the series called 'Pan Am', realised in 2011 is a great series, which I started watching at my night shift and I love it. The whole action takes places in 60s of XX century and it follows the life of Pan Am crew. It's great! I think not only people interested in the job of cabin/flight crew would be interested in the series!

So the storm passed and everyone was happy.

Lately, I was going around irritated and depressed, maybe because I didn't have much to do. I was saying things I didn't mean and being all mean. I blame my pms for it.

Anyway, I was thinking a lot. And I thought that maybe I should try more to write coherent posts on my blog. Well, it's not like many people read it anyway. I want some people to read it, but some of them clicked on the link I had sent them once and then forgot about it. Which is quite sad.

One day passed and it's still alive! Big success!

Year 2013 is difficult for me. I'm standing on the crossroads, not sure where to go. I have decided about the place where I want to reach, but there are many ways to go there. Every day I'm changing small things in my life. I'm trying to remember about my morning excercises routine. I bought a flower to deepen my hope for spring and I need to remember about watering it every day. I decided to go to Warsaw with my dance group to have a public performance, which makes me scared and excited at the same time. I'm trying to learn more about the friends that I know for some time already.... hey, don't you feel it sometimes? You know a person for a  long long time, but actually you never knew much about this person. I think me and some of my friends are ready to talk about new things now and I want to ask a looot of questions (yes, Kate - it's also about you~). I want to learn how to cook. I want to bake more cakes.

Spring spring spring spring spring spring..........................

But there comes dilemmas and problems to be solved. Opportunities come and go and I need to learn how to filter them. Because I don't want to try to do too many things at the same time. I want to decide on one way to go and concentrate on it. And now, I'm totally lost.

 Our 5 people Foreign Department from China.

I miss China and my life there and who I was there, so maybe that's why I'm still thinking of going back there, but I don't know if it's really what I want to do, or is it easy (relatively) to settle down there and that's the only reason I'm thinking of going again.

And hell........... I sent a small package in a bubbly envelope to Japan on the 5th of February, but it still hasn't been delivered yet. Is it lost? Where did it go??????

Oh, and at the end of this post I want to proudly announce that our costumes for performance in March are in process of being made:

A coat looking traditional Japanese happi. Made in Japan ^^ Handmade in Japan!