So the storm passed and everyone was happy.

Lately, I was going around irritated and depressed, maybe because I didn't have much to do. I was saying things I didn't mean and being all mean. I blame my pms for it.

Anyway, I was thinking a lot. And I thought that maybe I should try more to write coherent posts on my blog. Well, it's not like many people read it anyway. I want some people to read it, but some of them clicked on the link I had sent them once and then forgot about it. Which is quite sad.

One day passed and it's still alive! Big success!

Year 2013 is difficult for me. I'm standing on the crossroads, not sure where to go. I have decided about the place where I want to reach, but there are many ways to go there. Every day I'm changing small things in my life. I'm trying to remember about my morning excercises routine. I bought a flower to deepen my hope for spring and I need to remember about watering it every day. I decided to go to Warsaw with my dance group to have a public performance, which makes me scared and excited at the same time. I'm trying to learn more about the friends that I know for some time already.... hey, don't you feel it sometimes? You know a person for a  long long time, but actually you never knew much about this person. I think me and some of my friends are ready to talk about new things now and I want to ask a looot of questions (yes, Kate - it's also about you~). I want to learn how to cook. I want to bake more cakes.

Spring spring spring spring spring spring..........................

But there comes dilemmas and problems to be solved. Opportunities come and go and I need to learn how to filter them. Because I don't want to try to do too many things at the same time. I want to decide on one way to go and concentrate on it. And now, I'm totally lost.

 Our 5 people Foreign Department from China.

I miss China and my life there and who I was there, so maybe that's why I'm still thinking of going back there, but I don't know if it's really what I want to do, or is it easy (relatively) to settle down there and that's the only reason I'm thinking of going again.

And hell........... I sent a small package in a bubbly envelope to Japan on the 5th of February, but it still hasn't been delivered yet. Is it lost? Where did it go??????

Oh, and at the end of this post I want to proudly announce that our costumes for performance in March are in process of being made:

A coat looking traditional Japanese happi. Made in Japan ^^ Handmade in Japan!

If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.

I'm writing this post accompanied by sounds of chatter, singing and dining, as today I have a night shift in a different hotel! That's right! And no, I still haven't quit my job, neither have I found another. It's another hotel from our small hotels group. They didn't have anyone to work tonight, so of course they sent some fresh blood here. That is me, a person whose experience is limited to 22 hours of training and 2 night shifts in my hotel. Great.

The hotel i sgreat. It looks very cosy. The entrance leads you to the Mexican restaurant Manzana, reception is at the end of the corridor. Sitiing at the reception I can hear everything that's happening in the restaurant, and if I were to start shouting suddenly, I guess they would hear me too. It's very tempting to try it empirically, but I'll try to pretend I'm serious for once.

I came very early, almost one hour before my shift's start, because I wanted to see how it looks like and hear some instructions from the earlier shift's worker. She didn't seem to talkative, she scanned my attire from above of her glasses and she left after telling me that it'll probably be very calm and boring tonight.

Little did so.

I started off with selling some trips and one room, after showing it to the guests (and hell it took me long enough to find it myself). Then chats with the guests started.

"Wooof, it's so warm!" - said an older lady entering with her husband, her coat in her hand, reddish face and as warm a smile on her face.
"Indeed mean, it became warm so suddenly" - replied I, thinking that we really do have an early spring. Never expected it to became THAT hot though. I feel cold even with my coat, scarf, gloves and hat on.
"Oh..." - she said a bit confused. - "Good night"
They left.
Wait, something's wrong, I thought. I sat there for a few minutes... Aaaah! They came from the restaurant! That's why they felt so warm. Thanks god they haven't commented on my abset-mindedness, or maybe they should?

Another guest approached the reception to take his room keys. After confirming that it's no 20 that they're looking for I hear a question. "Pardon?" - I didn't understand it at first.
"Are you Sylvia?" - I'm sorry, I'm not. Again with the "oh..."?

Well, what is left for me to do is: wait for a guest that called she will come aroun 1 am (btw, she's still not here!) and after that I can consume my dinner packed by my loving mom, which consists of spicy, warming creamy carrot soup and potato pancakes. Just thinking about it my tummy starts talking to me with a sad voice: Don't care about the guests Don't care about anything Just give me something to eat Quickly I'm dying dyyying...

Intuition is a suspension of logic due to impatience.

Ok. So I started my New Year with laziness and impatience. I had so many days off (almost a week!!!!!), so I slept in late and went to bed around 2-3am. And today, to wake up to work, was like hell! That would be it for laziness. Impatience? This Chinese AIESEC drives me crazy! Is it even working? Maybe they are already preparing to celebrate Chinese New Year, but they totally ignore all my questions! To sign one paper... it took them ages! Wait, no. It took would be a past tense, so it's not right. Becuase I still didn't get this document. How many more days am I suppossed to wait for it? Come on, one sign. Just one. Please!

As I'm back at work, I'm also back to doing practical things. That is... writing my blog haha~! And learning Chinese ^^ No, it's not a New Year's Resolution. But I was learning it on my studies for a year and guess what? I can't speak it at all! So I decided that I should know at least how to ask where is the toilet. I still have some time, so I will use all my energy to learn from time to time..........

To be honest, I don't like Chinese language. Japanese is my first and last love, and Korean is following me everywhere (I'm trying to learn it to). Chinese sounds ridiculous. All those tones and sounds makes me go nuts. I don't hear the difference, I cannot diffirentiate two similar words. But, well, noone said it would be easy. I'm going to fight it, cause it's like my enemy. I want to know all those three main Asian languages, but only Chinese is such a pain in the... neck.

But it's still not the time to get discouraged! Cheer me on, I will concur it!

Today the biggest charity event in Poland took place. Just next to my workplace there was a small stage. The bigger one was in the center of course. I could hear some bands play, but when I got off work, they were already deconstructing it T^T

The lighting was taken down too. Boo!

Well then~!